Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Well, the MRI is over......now he waits for the results. He seems a wee bit calmer this evening.

I've been going through pictures this week. Jason emailed and asked for some of his baby pictures and some pictures of Kaya. I don't know if he has any of her......and he damn well should. He is her father:/ Looking through the pictures has brought to the surface lots of feelings and memories. I SO regret believing that bitch over my own son. I know we were going through a rough patch then anyway, but finding out what a liar Kezia is makes me regret believing anything she ever said.

I hadn't looked at Jason's baby pictures in a long time. They are getting faded.....I need to have them restored. I realized lots of things while I was going through them, too. One being that Kaya Michelle is her dad's clone. She looks JUST like Jason did when he was little....only with less hair.

The Peanut has been on my mind more than usual. Her 6th birthday is Friday. Another birthday without the family that adores her. I am thinking of putting a personal ad in the SF paper....just in case any of her mother's friends/family read the paper. Maybe it will piss her off enough to get in touch with us and let us know Kaya is ok. I can't imagine what Kaya thinks......her mother promised to bring her back "in a few days". That was 18 months ago :*(

God, I miss that little girl so damn much, my heart hurts. I still have her Christmas gifts wrapped and waiting for her.......

I'm glad we are going to be gone and busy this weekend....maybe I won't cry so much on Friday.....


Kimmer said...

Yay, finally an update! I hope you get good news from Chris' MRI - I know how scary it can be to have unexplained crap like that going on.

I think about Kaya, too, though nothing like you. I can't believe someone would do that to their child. (Shelly)

Pez said...

Still keeping Chris in my thoughts and prayers, Shelly.

You know I pray for Kaya often, Shelly. And my heart breaks for her and for you. I have tears in my eyes reading about her (and about Jason). {{hugs}} to you all.

Anonymous said...

Shelly, I am sorry for your hurt. I wish things wouldn't have to be so difficult. I understand about the sadness of family crap.

I hope you got my e-mail. I did it through your profile at SAHP.

The Most Evil One

Cathi said...

:*( I promise, when I find that magic wand, I'll wave it in your direction too. (((((( HUGS ))))))