Thursday, November 25, 2004

Gobble Gobble

The pies are finished, the turkey is in the oven, the rest of the food is prepared and ready to cook, and the table is set. Bring it on!

Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow we shop;-) I will be up at the ass crack of dawn to hit the Black Friday sales.

I am thinking of how much I have to be thankful for. My health, my family, my wonderful friends, both IRL and online. I am thankful for the fact that I have a roof over my head and a warm place to sleep. I am thankful for laughter, hugs and music. AND I am thankful that GWB will not be able to run for president again;-)

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Monday, November 22, 2004

My mood improved yesterday evening......though I still have an ache in my heart from missing my Peanut. It won't get better until I can see her and hold her again.

The youth group kids threw a surprise birthday party for Josephine and me yesterday afternoon:)

We had our YG meeting in the small chapel, because there was a ginormous party being held in the rest of the Parish Hall, and it was too loud to do the lesson. After the lesson was over, the kids went back over to the hall with Crystal...supposedly to eat the pizza that Tony and Patty bought. When Jo and I walked back over, the lights were out in the YG room...we both wondered where the kids had gone! We walked in and flipped the lights on...and the kids had decorated the room, had a beautiful cake on the table, with flowers and gifts for both of us. Both of us teared up. It was so sweet of them.....and believe me, it was just what I needed.

41 years ago today President Kennedy was assassinated. I was in 3rd grade. I was home sick from school. My Dad didn't have to go to work til swingshift, so he was home too. I remember sitting on the sofa watching Love of Life with my mom, when Walter Cronkite came on and said the president had been shot.....and that he had died. That was the first time I saw my Dad cry. I remember how sad I felt for Caroline and John John. It is amazing how vivid those memories still are.....

Sunday, November 21, 2004

I Miss My Peanut.

It has been a whole year since I have seen Kaya.....or heard from her. Her effing mother has disappeared from the planet, it seems. I have been trying to find her, but no luck. Who the fuck knows? Maybe she made good on her threat to
leave the country.

I am trying to stay busy today, but I can't stop thinking about her. I still have her Christmas gifts from last year wrapped and waiting for her......

It is a hard day.

This afternoon is youth group. Maybe being around the kids will help:*(

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Ob La Di Ob La Da.......Life goes on.....

It does go on, you know. Even with an evil ass being re elected. One thing this last election has done is made me even more political. Heaven help us all now, lol. I will be fighting the good fight;-)

In other news......

Where has this week gone? I can't believe it is already Saturday night.

Only 3 weeks til my birthday. I am buying a red hat that day;)

That night, I am going to see the boys play! I am thrilled. They are playing at the Crest Theater in Sacramento.....on my actual birthday. I think I should be able to pick the whole set list;-)

We all went to Cal Expo today. Chris and Joseph went to the car show, and I went to the Country Folk Art Show. I didn't spend a fortune, either. I picked up some really cute metal Christmas decorations.....2 for outside and one for inside.....and got some ideas for some other decorations to make myself:) I did get some darling jewelry......and for cheap, too. I got a Christmas bracelet, along with a couple of other beaded bracelets and 2 vintage looking brooches. All in all it was a good day. After the shows, Chris dropped me off at the mall while he and Joseph went to Guitar Center. He picked up another guitar stand for Boo, and a new guitar strap. I bought nothing at the mall....but had fun looking, lol.

Tomorrow morning is donut sales again....along with crucifixes, crosses and other stuff. We're still trying to raise more money for the L.A. trip in February....wouldn't want Father to have to give us too much:/

Chris is taking Monday off....he hasn't had a day off in 3 weeks. We're heading up to Sonora for the night after donut sales. He really wants to get away.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

The forums have calmed a bit today......although I came thisclose to putting one particular person on ignore. I added a new tagline to my forum sig because of her. Minds work better when open. I could have added ***and not so damned self righteous.***

I am still thoroughly pissed that the fuckwad was re elected. I still can't figure out why intelligent people would vote for him. (I got into trouble for saying that I thought voting for shrubya was stupid. I still do....but becasue I think someone does something stupid...does not mean I think they are stupid. ) Honestly. I don't understand why anyone would vote for him. I really wish someone would give me a good reason. One I could accept.
I hear the "pro life" argument. I guess I am feeling really old. I have seen too much. I have seen abandoned kids......abused kids. Are they better off having been born? Is the 2 year who died after her mother dropped her in the water off the Vallejo pier better off for having lived for 2 short the ghetto, with a drug abuser for a mother? What about the 3 month old baby who was shaken to death by its father?

True confession time.....that is what this is for, right?

When I first found out I was pregnant with Joseph....I seriously thought about aborting him. Seriously. I talked to a person at the clinic and everything. I had a 16 year old son! What the hell was I doing having a child at 35???? Needless to say, he was a complete surprise:/

Now, people (right to lifers) will say to me...."but look what you would have missed out on!"
I would have missed nothing. What, you say?

I adore Joseph. Adore him. He is the light of my life. I love him so much it hurts sometimes. He makes me laugh on a daily basis...he has the best sense of humor. He is brilliant. He learns things in a day that would take me weeks to learn (if ever). He has taught himself to play the guitar. He plays so well in less than a year....people are amazed. The guys in the band are so impressed with his playing. He is good and kind and sensitive and loving and funny and honest. He can carry on a conversation with anyone....from a 2 year old to an 85 year old.

But.....if I had aborted him, I wouldn't know any of that. Knowing that, I am so glad I made the decision to carry on with the pregnancy. BUT......if I had ended the pregnancy, I wouldn't know any of it.....therefore I wouldn't miss it. I don't know if I explained it well....but it makes sense to me, at least. I know I am rambling;)

Ok, enough election crap:/

I was carless today. The truck is acting up so Chris took the Volvo to work. It is amazing what I get done around the house when I have no wheels. He's taking the car tomorrow as well. The house should be spotless by the end of the day;-)

We had a meeting at Jo's tonight. It is so nice to be able to walk around the corner for a meeting. We had to be fingerprinted...since we volunteer around kids. My fingers are still stained;)
We are planning another night out for the adult leaders....dinner in San Francisco on Saturday was wonderful:-)

I am hoping to get everyone to go see the guys if they play in Sacramento.......

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Don't sweat the petty things....and don't pet the sweaty things;/

I was told today by someone on the forums that I am being petty. "Your pettiness and insults lower any message you may have had. If you want change it has to start with yourself and thus far you are not convincing me or any other Bush supporters that we made any sort of mistake. "

I had posted that something to the effect that I thought the American people were smarter than enough to see through all the BUshit. (of course I didn't sayBUshit....that wouldn't be nice.....and gawd knows I always try to be nice.....) And that I was disappointed and disgusted...and scared.

I was also told that my 'attitude was beneath me'

What the fuckever:/ This woman has not begun to see my 'attitude', lol......and she won't. She's not worth it. I guess I am not allowed to say what I think of the election. *shrug*

I have seen some gloating and a lot of self righteousness coming from the Bushies. (But we "losers" are whining?):/ One person even made mention that maybe the Dems needed a candidate with good morals (?) WTF does that mean? She made it sound as if Dems have no morals. Hoo boy. What I wanted to say to her then!

I was actually nicer than I wanted to be ;/

I am fucking sick and disgusted at the fucking people of America. The fucking son of a bitch has been reelected:/ What the HELL were these people thinking? I can't fucking believe it.

I am scared for our country. What is going to happen in the next 4 years? How many MORE rights will we have taken away? I am scared for Joseph. What kind of a world will it be for him?

I am so glad I don't have a daughter. With Judge Rehnquist sick......if he retires, shrub will put in a reactionary judge, and Roe v Wade will be overturned. It won't stop abortions.....but it will stop safe and legal ones:( Back alley abortions will again be the thing.

I am so thankful I live in California. Maybe the west coast & the northeast should secede & form our own country. We could be the United States. Let the friggin idiots in the midwest & south have their own shrub loving country (or theocracy......which is the way we're heading anyway...) Maybe they can call it Sheepleville. Who fucking cares anyway.

Is it too early to look for an impeach Bush site?

I am depressed...........very depressed. And scared shitless.