Thursday, November 04, 2004

The forums have calmed a bit today......although I came thisclose to putting one particular person on ignore. I added a new tagline to my forum sig because of her. Minds work better when open. I could have added ***and not so damned self righteous.***

I am still thoroughly pissed that the fuckwad was re elected. I still can't figure out why intelligent people would vote for him. (I got into trouble for saying that I thought voting for shrubya was stupid. I still do....but becasue I think someone does something stupid...does not mean I think they are stupid. ) Honestly. I don't understand why anyone would vote for him. I really wish someone would give me a good reason. One I could accept.
I hear the "pro life" argument. I guess I am feeling really old. I have seen too much. I have seen abandoned kids......abused kids. Are they better off having been born? Is the 2 year who died after her mother dropped her in the water off the Vallejo pier better off for having lived for 2 short the ghetto, with a drug abuser for a mother? What about the 3 month old baby who was shaken to death by its father?

True confession time.....that is what this is for, right?

When I first found out I was pregnant with Joseph....I seriously thought about aborting him. Seriously. I talked to a person at the clinic and everything. I had a 16 year old son! What the hell was I doing having a child at 35???? Needless to say, he was a complete surprise:/

Now, people (right to lifers) will say to me...."but look what you would have missed out on!"
I would have missed nothing. What, you say?

I adore Joseph. Adore him. He is the light of my life. I love him so much it hurts sometimes. He makes me laugh on a daily basis...he has the best sense of humor. He is brilliant. He learns things in a day that would take me weeks to learn (if ever). He has taught himself to play the guitar. He plays so well in less than a year....people are amazed. The guys in the band are so impressed with his playing. He is good and kind and sensitive and loving and funny and honest. He can carry on a conversation with anyone....from a 2 year old to an 85 year old.

But.....if I had aborted him, I wouldn't know any of that. Knowing that, I am so glad I made the decision to carry on with the pregnancy. BUT......if I had ended the pregnancy, I wouldn't know any of it.....therefore I wouldn't miss it. I don't know if I explained it well....but it makes sense to me, at least. I know I am rambling;)

Ok, enough election crap:/

I was carless today. The truck is acting up so Chris took the Volvo to work. It is amazing what I get done around the house when I have no wheels. He's taking the car tomorrow as well. The house should be spotless by the end of the day;-)

We had a meeting at Jo's tonight. It is so nice to be able to walk around the corner for a meeting. We had to be fingerprinted...since we volunteer around kids. My fingers are still stained;)
We are planning another night out for the adult leaders....dinner in San Francisco on Saturday was wonderful:-)

I am hoping to get everyone to go see the guys if they play in Sacramento.......


Pez said...

{{hugs}} Shelly

Shelly said...


Thanks Denine. I needed that.

Anonymous said...

I am ready to scream; at least some of us have some sanity still. I have resorted to ignore. Hanan

DMouse007 said...

Go for ignore. I popped in to see the shit, and was not disappointed.

tattooed heathen said...

I don't understand it either. :(